I'm getting sick and tired of everything.
First, I'm graduating soon from school because i don't have my cert yet.
And i want to work part time at Shangs for the time being, because i want to spend more
time with Baby and some friends and go on vacation at the end of the year.
But, it seems that, everyone is very unhappy about what i do.
Mum and Dad keep forcing me into finding a full time job, they told me the reasons,
but i told them my plans, but they still don't get it. Still forcing me to find one, and telling
me and telling me non-stop everyday, if they see me. It's enough!
I know what i'm doing, yes, people who graduate will find a job straight and they
will take my place, yes i know! But i just want to do things like this BECAUSE YOUR HAVE
NEVER LET ME BE FREE TO DO WHATEVER I WANT! I'M ALWAYS TRAP IN A CAGE,
JUST BECAUSE I'M A GIRL, DOESN'T MEAN I DON'T KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF
MYSELF! I ENVY PEOPLE, WHOSE PARENTS ALLOW THEM TO DO THINGS BUT
WITH CERTAIN RULES. I CAN FOLLOW THAT CERTAIN RULES BUT NO....YOU
INSIST ON DOING YOUR EVERY WAY WHEN I'M TRYING TO TELL YOU I WANT OUT!
I'M SUFFOCATING BECAUSE OF ALL THESE! I'VE BEEN LISTENING TO YOU ALL THESE
YEARS, OBEYING YOUR EVERY WORDS. BUT YOU STILL WOULDN'T GIVE ME MY
SPACE... I'M ALWAYS THE ONE WHO HAS TO DO THE HOUSEWORK ALSO, WHEN
YOU SAY THE BOYS HELP WHEN WHAT I SEE IS BULLSHIT!!! I REALLY WANT TO
GET OUT IF THIS HOUSE SOONER OR LATER.
Second, this is now baby's turn... I was pretty upset with things nowadays,
because, i don't get to spend my time tomorrow with darling, our 1 year 1 mth
anniversary. It's because of his NS stuff....sigh.... dun wanna say anything more.
I find there's no teamwork at all.
Yesterday, i complained to him about mama... again, with the job thingin.
I feel damn vexed about it, it's pressuring me and stressing me.
I also told him about, us not really having enough time this week because of
the many things cropping up. And i was also annoyed by it. And because of all these,
both of us got angry and i was told off and said somethings about me getting a job.
It's like, here i am trying to spend as much time as possible with you before i start work
because once i start i wouldn't have time for anything at all, i have to quit cosplay and all.
Unlike your, your still get to have a few more years. Now is the 7th month, so they don't
need that many people. But, it's like you want me to work if i was needed to, even if you
don't get to see me, even if i work on your off days for both days. You said, you'll at the most send me to work then go home. Honestly, what's the point? It really made me feel that,
i can turn to no one to understand my point of view, to understand how much i really
wanna spend time with you and others. Then BLAH BLAH BLAH....
Honestly, i still feel really upset about what you've said to me....
Third, now is about the mooncake i helped to order for mum and other people.
But guess what? Someone who knows mum told her about this also, then i don't know what,
because of the 7th month and whatever thing, i got blamed for ordering it too early...
Do i look like a "know everything" kind of person? How would i know when the 7th month
ends, its not like we never do it before. I was afraid of the low stocks... and what can i
do? Nothing what... it's not like i know everything, so many people ordered even earlier
than us. SIgh... what's the point of helping your order it, next time just go order it yourselves!
Really feel vexed about so many things, i just wanna run away from home and all.